Long treatment ahead

 I'm still fighting a set back in my condition that started about in January, I have had many supporters including Family and Friends as well as people like Rybka's creator IM Vasik Rajlich (who I feel I'm letting down at the moment). 

 When I started logging TransWarp back online I had no idea what was about to hit me, massive weakness to the point I cannot work on TransWarp's settings, I need to read to find out how to set the "Don't accept draw" function as well as a variation of the old "contempt" function in Deep Rybka 3...  These two problems, until I get them fixed will have TransWarp "No Rated" by admins on ICC, this is to avoid skewing ratings by TransWarp accepting easy draws as early as move 8 I believe.

 One of my main supporter's on ICC, FREEBIRD, has been most helpful in understanding what happened to me and why I haven't been online when I answered his e-mail regarding my finding out how to keep Deep Rybka 4 under control in the TransWarp account, I'm sorry to Vas, in habit, I've been referring to TransWarp and not Deep Rybka 4, which has many new controls when it came out, I was so excited, it went right online with some recommendations for a "contempt" setting on the Rybka Forum by GM Larry Kaufman, sadly it didn't pan out and the problem started with the easy draws...which was a bit of deja vu for me with Rybka 2.3.2a, which could be blockaded easily, despite taking the lines out of the book. 

 I'm having good days and bad days, but it's my fault really that TW hasn't been back online to answer one person's question.  I haven't had the strength to try to research the problem and then try to put a solution into effect.  I feel TW has been a great part of the ICC community and I miss it greatly!!  I miss all of my regulars, people who supported TW, I feel I'm letting everyone down.  But it cannot be helped until a therapy they put into affect (which MIGHT be working, but it's so hard to tell when you are this weak), I've been pretty much bed ridden since January and now am looking seriously at the scooter commercials.  I can't use a wheelchair by myself because with polymyositis, one of the first muscles that get weak are in the shoulder area, like when I first got ill and though it was a work injury way back in '88, I had noticed I was washing my hair with one arm propped on the shower wall,,,it's back to this stage again, I've fell several times and had to crawl to my bed to get up.  So when the easiest thing for the regular person, causes extreme fatigue and pain, it's tough to concentrate on a problem as hard as this.  And then thinking of trying to put together a new opening book..scares the heck out of me.

  I apologize to those who look forward to seeing TW play, I know there are some GM's salivating at the thought of it coming back with the same problem to boost their ratings, but first tests (when they happen) will be unrated.  But this is good, it will give some of the high rated players a chance to play TW who couldn't before due to the put up at least a point policy...I feel that when there is nothing to risk, even 1 point, play is different.  Like when playing poker on fake money sites..people going all in with 7 2 offsuit....you get the picture.  As many pro chess players have went the poker route in downtime.

  My hands are going to sleep, I will TRY to work on this soon, but I've said that before, it's how long the therapy takes to regain strength, IF it works and I'm so scared it won't.  No one wants to be bedridden.  So not only physical, but mental aspects have to be broken to get to working on this, when it's a program...or your personal health, you take your health first..at least I put up a new post for the Chinese spammer who keeps trying to post comments on here despite the fact they are all previewed and I have a policy of English only now...as it's my language, not because of any personal bias..I actually like other languages, it's just when they take advantage of me commenting in Chinese about porn sites that I have to go with what I know.  Luckily there are translation programs online and saved me from leaving a comment on one of the posts that was totally not related to the site or it's content which is supposed to be family friendly.

 Again, Thanks for your support, those who pray, I sure wouldn't mind it!  It's proven to help, faith is a powerful thing...even to top chessplayers but in their play usually but a lot to personal faith with God.